❛ i can feel this heart inside me and i conclude it exists. i can touch this world and i also conclude that it exists. all my knowledge ends at this point. the rest is hypothesis ❜

sometimes i think about remaking this blog and forgetting all of the bad memories associated with it, associated with the posts i made when i was so depressed i couldn’t breathe, or when i couldn’t get out of bed in second year.

sometimes i wish i had the courage to just remake everything and restart and reset everything that needs to be reset.

sometimes i am very low and very sad and very alone and i wish i had the courage to tell people how i think about not existing anymore, how i think about what it would be like to just lie down and not wake up

im very tired and very sad and i dont understand what it’s going to take to get better